{"collection":"chr","html_url":"https://unchartedknowledge.5gfusion.net/browse/chr/ecf/008/0080612.htm","path":"chr/ecf/008/0080612.htm","source_url":"https://sacred-texts.com/chr/ecf/008/0080612.htm","text":"As I pondered without ceasing these and such like questions\u2014I know not whence arising\u2014I had such bitter grief, that, becoming pale, I wasted away; and, what was most terrible, if at any time I wished to drive away this meditation as unprofitable, my suffering became all the more severe; and I grieved over this, not knowing that I had a fair inmate, even my thought, which was to be to me the cause of a blessed immortality, as I afterwards knew by experience, and gave thanks to God, the Lord of all. For it was by this thought, which at first afflicted me, that I was compelled to come to the search and the finding of things; and then I pitied those whom at first, through ignorance, I ventured to call blessed.","title":"Ante-Nicene Fathers, Vol VIII: Pseudo-Clementine Literature.: Chapter II","type":"page"}